I’ve written, re-written, deleted entirely and thrown this post out about five times now. What I thought would be one of the most natural things to put into words has turned into a journey in itself.
Someone I know has recently embarked on a beautiful journey of self-discovery, using blogs, Instagram and her own words to convey a story which is as inspiring as it is honest. Like many other woman I have followed posts; passing silent judgement, taking note and ultimately looking at things with that niggling doubt of myself that comes with social media comparison.
And you know… I hated it.
I hate that despite how happy I can feel within myself, I still have this insatiable need for validation that only the internet can provide. I don’t know if it’s something that has always been in me, or if this is a culture that I’ve allowed myself to become tangled up with.
Either way, it’s got me thinking. This; coupled with the words from an empowered woman have led me to say something I’ve wanted to say for a long time, but never really had the opportunity to. Or perhaps I’ve never grasped the opportunity before now.
I’m sorry.
I didn’t give you enough. To take the time to see past the perpetual display of perfection.
I’m sorry I felt anger towards you. Feelings that were only built from a gross misunderstanding of my own insecurities and the words of others.
I’m sorry for what you’ve had to endure at the hands of a man that didn’t deserve the woman he had. People are cruel and heartless and just downright awful sometimes.
But it is how we learn and grow that determines who we are. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for helping me see that. I hope you know how much the world needs people like you. How much we, as woman, need your voice.
Shout louder for the ladies at the back.
Sincerely,
A newly empowered woman.